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It’s 23 days into the new year. My last post was setting the tone for 2023… my path was to remain a student of God. As of today, I have only been going through the motions.

Holy Spirit helped me to realize that if I’m not actively seeking God, then I leaving Him waiting. He’s ever present but a gentleman, He will never force himself on anyone.

When did I make praying an obligation instead of what it’s meant to be. Prayer is a weapon. The only weapon I have to win against the enemy.

Prayer is open communication with God. Prayer is both complex and simple. It’s silent at times and others it screams! Prayer has it’s own language.

Prayers are the calling cards of our hearts. They tap into the depths of our souls.

How then have I put God on a shelf when I spend every morning with Him? Like clockwork, 5:30 am the alarm sounds, coffee on, and I sit in my prayer closet. Some morning spent wiping sleep from my eyes, searching for focus to the words on the page in front of me, rereading parts that were missed. Jotting down my morning thoughts of gratitude to my Father. Fast forward to 6:45 am- times up. Ready to prepare for the work day.

That morning haze is where I left God waiting. Routine turned into obligation, which stole the intimacy with God from me. I failed to realize what was going on.

So today is the day to take back what was lost. Take back what was missing. Press the numb, dull routine out and begin new! I will live my life as a living sacrifice to God. I will not be limited by the silo that I find myself in. I’m dusting off my Jesus and wearing Him wherever I go.

Bold faith is waiting; God is receiving and I am no longer searching. I have found my place at the feet of Jesus. Right where He left me.

Thank you Jesus for always knowing the heaviness of me.

Tabi