I really don’t know a lot of things. I’ve never lived in real trauma. I never lived in an abusive situation. I’ve never really had anything ‘bad’ happen to me in my lifetime.
My testimony is full of things I did to myself. I asked for divorce. I slept around. I ran from one relationship into another. I dishonored my family by being selfish. I took on lies about myself. I partnered with the world for selfish reasons. I looked to make my own glory. I never knew the real Jesus. I never looked for a savior, I always looked for a protector and someone to rescue me.
I think back over my life and won’t allow myself to remember details. When I began this journey with Jesus; I left all of that at the cross. I poured out my soul, my lies, my selfishness and I put it at His feet. And together we walked away. He doesn’t want me to look back- Jesus protected me for over 40 years. It’s not about looking back it’s about walking forward in faith.
I pray everyday thanking Jesus for His willingness to give me this day- not because I’m suppose to, not because I was told to. I pray this everyday because I genuinely mean thank you for another day to serve YOU.
I have allowed the enemy to use my past in a way that limited God. I felt I wasn’t worthy to share myself with others because of my past. Holy Spirit reminds me that, that is selfish! God is bigger and my past is a testimony to move forward. My past isn’t about me it’s about Him. Yes, I’m the human that chose the world, but He never left me. He walked with me- I was the one that kept Him in the background.
So whatever you are hiding from, running from, or not willing to let come from your lips- give it to God! He already knows- trust that He will forgive! Leave it at the cross and together move forward in faith. Start building a new testimony!
I pray for those who are reading this to have eyes that see and ears that hear! God is calling you and He loves you! His abundance is enough and His promises are for you! Are you willing to choose Him?
Tabi