This weekend was full of revelation and lots of fellowship. I love how God moves through His people. I am amazed thinking of His work throughout our lives throwing in a Jesus believer and we don’t even realize it was Him. That happened this weekend with Casey Graham Russell.
I was invited to a Women’s Conference last week and wasn’t sure what to expect only being twenty miles from my home. What was God going to bring to SW Kansas in February that I needed to go to?
I’ve been to other conferences- most recently the Greater Awakening in OKC. Which was soul stirring for sure! And we were on fire when we returned. But this conference was different- it was for women only.
So a little back story, I have four sisters. I grew up in a house full of women and quiet frankly, growing up a tomboy I didn’t need anymore women in my life. Starting school, was the same way- I stayed true to myself and was on the soccer field. This was how most of my school years went. I was one of the boys.
Fast forward about 30 years, I find myself wondering why God would put me with women? I’ve written before that I am not a deep diver into emotions. I have them. I can feel them. Oddly enough, its my gift. But openly speaking about things pushes me past my comfort level.
Casey’s message was simple- My Story for His glory. As she spoke, Holy Spirit opened my eyes and ears; He made me see that I am the same as everyone else in this room. A woman. I have scars, they have scars. I have walls, they have walls. I am seeking God, they are too. Casey wanted to drive in that our story’s can help someone else in similar situations. We can call on one another to connect scar to scar. By letting my story be known, God will use me to share with another women for His glory.
My story is full of stuff that I’m not proud of. I lived a self absorbed life, I wasn’t faith in relationships, I would hid from situations or people that I didn’t want to face. I used my wit and jokes to cover up what I really thought. Looking over my past now, I can see where God saved me from myself. Everything in my past was a choice that I made and I will own that! My scars are self-inflected.
Sunday, Pastor Jason called different groups to stand and spoke a new word into their lives. I stood when he called the unworthy. Unworthy to share my testimony because of the path I chose. He spoke grace as my superpower. Because God gave me so much grace through my life, I am able to give grace more freely.
God is so good. This in one weekend. The most amazing part of all, I faced it. I didn’t hid. I was bold in Christ because He strengthens me. I am ready to walk in my story.
What revelations did you have this weekend? Or throughout the week? God is always moving and talking, if we take the time to lean in and listen.
Have a blessed week!
Tabi