What happens when I stray from God’s path?
Temporary highs. Nothing lasting. Nothing to chase after. Nothing worthy.
I no longer seek to conquer the day, only to survive to go back into hiding.
Back to the comfort of hiding myself from the world.
I carry bags of hatred and attitude everywhere I go.
I receive pain; collecting filth from everyone I encounter
I trade my faith for nothing.
Shame keeps me here.
I bury my soul. Closing my eyes I only see darkness.
Emptiness. Naked to the world. Exposed.
My life is no longer my own. I’ve fallen.
I’m lost and no one is coming to find me!
Drowning in loss. Never able to find footing. Never able to catch a breath.
Each step away from my purpose becomes days away from God.
Miles into years. Stolen time.
An unfinished purpose.
Why do I fight God? Why does my will yield power over God’s will?
My life is no longer my own.
My past wants me to believe I’m damaged.
Broken without repair.
My heart weeps for a loss I never knew.
The despair is overwhelming.
Satan delights in the wounded; he tallies the battle scars.
Left untreated wounds grow into temptation.
LIES! All are lies that attack us through thoughts and whispers….
I will not be paralyzed by my past!!
Yes, there’s a battle going on between me, my past and right now!
My choice is do I stay under God’s wing or do I try it my way?
My journey is in front of me and beside me is Jesus.
I hope if there are those around me that are in despair that i would notice and try to intervene as spirit guides.