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My heart has never mourned a thing so small.

A life that meant so much to be lost.

A family who grew together so close and isolated. Who knew only to rely on itself…

Gained a blessing one day, only for it to be taken two months later.

This promise they treasured. Spent countless hours holding, not willing to lay him down.

Calling him Ryan.

Watching toes curl, caressing his swollen belly. Love without limits.

Finally the sweet sound of his laughter came the evening before his passing.

God only knows the reason for such a tragedy, “Why Lord? Why did You need this baby?”

The mysteries of God are deep. Questions roll in like the tide, ever rising.

Answers are not promised. My heart can only trust in Jesus.