Is it weird to say ‘Welcome Back’ to myself? The writer who is slacking to jump on here and update or write anything. Truth is I’m constantly adding ‘blog’ to my To- Do list, but sadly, it never earns a check mark of completion. It seems that my to-do’s are too overwhelming to get done. Until today! I am giving it 15.
Yesterday, during my devotional time Holy Spirit challenged me to give each item on my purpose list 15 minutes. His additional advice was to move one step- so I’m giving it that. One step, 15 minutes.
15 minutes and a blank page.
If you have read any of the previous posts you may be confused on the purpose of this blog, where’s it going and how did it begin. Originally, it was a platform for my childcare program. A place for enrolled parents to see activities, menus and see any announcements that was posted. Then it changed to more of a lifestyle blog where I posted things that I was interested, things that I was doing in my life. Then I began the journey to learn more about Jesus- so it evolved into a testimony to Him.
I’m still walking with Jesus and writing to Him daily- I’m failing to share the actual story of what He’s doing in my life. He’s doing so many great things, perhaps the hesitation is that I keep falling into the same traps. That the embarrassment and shame of 3 years into my walk and I’m still broken. I’m still challenged by the past that Jesus has forgiven me of, that He has separated from me. I want to be the naive child who follows Jesus without a care in the world, but I’m 46 and I have addictions, I have problems that I haven’t fully surrendered.
Bottom line- I need Jesus so much in my life that it doesn’t feel like I can do anything without Him. I can’t trust myself to make decisions without first talking with Him. My first prayer daily is “thank you for giving me another chance”. My gratitude isn’t because I’m horrible, it’s because I am truly not worthy of His sacrifice.
First post of 2025, my motto going into this year is I never want my testimony to have a period (end). I am a work in progress.
God’s love for us is unconditional! Don’t let the enemy rob you of anything!
May blessings pour over you in Jesus’s name. Amen.